Regret

As many people know my sister law passed away a few weeks ago. It hit me rather hard because of the similarities between her death and my Moms.
They were both the same age at the time of their passing.
My sister in law has two daughters age 17 and 23...I was 21 at the time my Mom passed.
And seeing my brother in  law brought back memories of watching my what my Dad was going through at the time.
This also made me think about how much regret that I have over my Moms passing. That's probably why I have such a hard time, even now, letting go. There were many things left unsaid and many things that we did not sort out.
I wasn't the most perfect of teenagers and there were things said and done on both of our parts that neither of us ever sat down and worked out. Sure things were forgotten and amends were made, but the root of what caused everything was never really talked about.
I so wish she was still her, so we could talk about it. I would love the opportunity to explain to her how I was feeling, what that whole experience was like for me, and how I felt about the way she treated me at the time.
Again, I know I wasn't an angel and I expect that there were many hurt feelings caused by me on her end. What I wouldn't give to have the opportunity to tell her how truly sorry I am for all that. But, now it is to late.
I urge you all to never wait, if things are not going well with a family member take care of it NOW! The opportunity may never come later on.